Basically today had annoying subjects but hehehehhe philo was super fun again. Gosh the second half of the class always gets the best of both worlds. We have Mrs K for SnD and Mr Lim turns out to be nicer now than when he was teaching the first half of the classs. Omg guess what? Mr Lim ErYang takes 190 too, ahhahaha he got off at the BPP stop tooo. Then he took 176 too! Hahahahha lucky he didn't get off at the same stop too. Hahaha I didn't even say hi. Feel kinda bad now >:(

Super glad I can strike out two of the things from my todolitst. I finished well sorta my transcript for geog. Hopefully its fine(:

Its getting late gtg

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omg i just wanna sleep already )':

STOP- IT- ALREADY- PLEASE

homfgzomgzomg I was damn pissed off today, with someone. Gosh stop it already. Stop thinking everyone around you is as dumb as you think they are. Trust me, many a time, I just keep quiet at your mindless comments and not breathe a word, so you better just shut the hell up. (Sorry couldn't help it, I actually find this kinda funny but yeah, back to being pissed) Woah you really piss me off today.

Here's how the convo went.

Person A: Ehhhh ____________

Me: I thought we're not supposed to

Person A: Just do it lah you dumbass

Me: No seriously, if we wash it, we're not gi....-

Person A: (before I could finish) Sometimes I wonder why you're so blur.

-Teacher walks by-

Teacher: Girls don't ___________

btw, the 2 ___________ are the same thing, I'm just not mentioning it to give off clues on which subject, person or anything lah basically. 

Okay I mean like seriously, stop treating me like that. I can't stand it yknow? Its so pissing off. You're so smart alleck all the time. No one else annoyed me so much today. How can you say such hurtful things like "Dumbass" when actually you're the one in the wrong. I know you probably go "I was joking lah,...." But honestly, even jokes have limits. I think I have kind of told you off for many other things before. Don't think I'll just keep quiet everytime okay. Don't you ever dare do that again or I (promise, not swear hahaha) I'll just freaking tell you off and embarrass you in front of everyone present. 

Well you're prob thinking how could I get so pissed off over such a small thing. Well it didn't just end there. She freaking annoyed me in PE too. I hate people who underestimate me just because I don't tell them off what I really feel. Its like you say I'm dumb but in actual fact its actually you who are so dumb as to think so lowly of everyone but yourself. I can't stand you. But I'll tolerate it. But anyways here's how the other incident went.

--k i'll give this away--

(During PE, Rockclimbing)

Me: Hey, how is it possible for two people to climb at once. Aren't they gonna just crash?

Person A: Wow, lysha I just wonder how sometimes you can be so dumb. Obviously they're not climbing all together as a group

Me: No you don't get what I mean, I'm talking about two separate people from 2 groups. What if the girl on the left climbs slowly, does that mean the girl on the right has to wait for a long period of time?

How can people just be sooooo urgh. Such disgusting character, honestly. I really thought we'ld be great friends since Sec 1 but you can really piss me off. Just asdfghjkl ;O Because of her I end up looking bad too for having to vent out my feelings through the blod. (I'll prob delete this, if I feel like it)

All in all, I think we should all look at ourselves first and think, before we actually move on to put others down. Get your facts right baby. And please reflect on your situational awareness/ slash lack there of and  try not to behave like how you did in the future. You just changed my entire opinion of you man. Why do I even hang out with you again? Oh right the others don't know, and we'll keep it that way.

I forgive you ( I think) but if you do it again, I'll just tell you straight away in the face. I don't care who's looking or who we're with

Got that? ( Thug like hand gestures, kidding;P Yay I've already cooled down)

Yay blogging helps me a lot. 

My love my blog till the sky ends,

but here's the thing,

It doesn't <3

Subject Combi + + +

Gosh this is really stressing me out, honestly. So its a really complicated story altogether.

At first, I wanted to do Trip science + Geog (Thinking everyone was doing that so that was the perfect combi)

Then I realised how dumb that was so I decided to do something that actually was good for me, yes me. So I thought that I probably couldn't cope in trip science which meant I dropped one science for geog and hist. But then again I couldn't decide which to drop. I feel a strong hatred for Bio, not sure if its cos of my sis (she hates it too) or whether I really can't do it. I did better for physics than bio which is very strange cos most people are otherwise. +.+ Butbutbut, I felt Physics is useless, like I'm not really into Engineering so yep not my thing. So eventually I though Chem + Physics + Geog + Hist. was good for me.

Hehehhehe things get really complicated. )':

Kaykay after that. Area Studies came into the picture. Area studies is this subject, I'm really interested in, its a combination of Geog and History, which is cool cos I wasn't able to decide between the two if I was going with trip science + 1 humans. Plus, you can take Hist at H2 in A Levels with Area Studies. I really am interested in the curriculum so yeah I badly wanted to join it.

But then other factors like the fear of it turning out to be really boring/ the fear only I would would have such a strange combination/ the fear that I needed another humans cos I prob wouldn't be able to cope still/ the confusion of which humans to choose as a result. Woahhhhhhh, complicated yeah?

But then, my parents disallowed me from doing A.S.

Hehehehehehe

Some how, i managed to get my parents to allow me to take up area studies as my humans. (: Pro huh? Their like so fixed on something its so hard to move them, seriously, but i did! But they prob figured they should let me do what I want to do rather than forcing me to be trapped in something I don't want to pursue in jc/ future life.

So I'm thinking Trip Science + Area Studies


Not confirmed though and still in deep thought about thissss. 


God please help me make the right decision )':


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P.s. : I'll be talking about the other stuff i promised in subsequent posts so the lack of coherence won't be so obvious. 

yes! I finished my report. Like completely and I printed it out.

Now time to print and paste and crap out my logbook. (Edits: Finished at 11/04, moving on to doing lit fa)

Then i will do Lit fa


And then research on the Geog PT.

Yes, very ambitious in deed.

If i finish all of the above I may post about all the listed out stuff just now. Its very interesting. (Heh, who am I kidding? >:( )

anyway jiayou everyone


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outburst of tears and what not

Edits: I feel much better now, Let everything out, and maybe a bit too much. May delete this post later. 

Sometimes I feel that my parents are just downright biased. I mean its so obvious man. How could they? Its so damn freaking hurtful yknow? I keep trying to tell myself they’re not, just like how they (obviously-.-) say they’re not, but its keeps proving itself to be true.

I saw that second when I looked into her eyes and saw she didn’t know what else to say to cover up this time. That moment I knew for sure she was being biased): Com one lah, I knew since young.

I can tell you one thing for sure. I can forgive soooo easily, but I never forget. I never will forget everything I experience, unpleasant things since I’m young, then shit in I experienced in school and all. It way more scary than it sounds.

I may laugh/ talk/ even hang out with you, but mind you, I didn’t forget a single thing you did to me. And the thing is, I never will

I really never will.

Amen

zommmmmmmg. YAY Malay exam is overrrrr. Hehehehe i thought it was okay, but then again, I thought imbuhan was just grossly done so I hope everything else turns out fine.

I have sooo many things I want to talk about.

1) SubjectCombi ): ): ):
2) Discipline
3) Weird friendships.
4) Fearsss.

Gah I really should get going and make sure everything's done.

On a side note, Getwellsoon Mummy )': Stop coughing already, you're making it worse.

Brb
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YES! I finished the Results section of SIP Report. Kuddos to me(': no, seriously, cos so many times I just wanted to go to bed and forget about SIP but I didn't until I finished. So my conclusion is targets are useful. (Well more useful than I thought). Okay I can't believe I just spelled useful as usefull. But I changed it already! Hehehehhe

Okay so my new target is to finish the SIP report by 10.

But here's the breakdown.

I will finish the discussion by 8.25/


K gonna do it now.


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Damn it

Gosh feeling damn tired to complete SIP. Actually I still have quite a bit left, but i'm tired. and lazy.

Okay I probably should set target.

I will finish plotting my data and the graphs, for the Results section of the report and the Appendix.

Go me.


Pleasegivemethestrengthandmotivationtocontinuemywork.

That was looooooooooooong/


Kback to SIP


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I'M SO SO SO SO SO SORRY TO THOSE WHO I MAJORLY PISSED OFF FOR WAITING FOR ETERNITY FOR ME EVEN THOUGH IT WAS SO SO SO SO SO LATE. )': I'm super sorry I'm so irresponsible and inconsiderate. Gah I made everyone mad. Everyone screamed at me. I felt like crying, but I didn't cos it was really MY FAULT. Gahhhh I hate this kind of feeling. I can't sleeeeeeep. ): ): ): ): ):

On a brighter note,

Today's performance was okkkkkkkkaaaaaaaaaaaay, I guess? But it was funfunfun! (: Guess who I saw at Fort Canning Park?

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I saw, my classmatessssss(: Turns out they were having SL before that and when they saw me, they stayed on to watch our performance. I was so touched cos it was actually damn hot and humid and sweaty but they stayed on and cheered us on (: Damn I screwed up in some songs ehehheheh and Kim and I kept hitting the same tone bar for some parts, we forgot to keep to our different pitches so yeahhhh.
But I thought the performance overall was not too bad, though lots of room for improvement.

K I'm really tired but I gotta do SIP sianzxczxczxc manzxczxczxc. Hahahahaha

k back to reality of life


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Going to school later. And and and fort canning performance laterrrrrrrrrr (:

Hope it turns out fine.



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NICE GUYSSSS (Y)

Hahahahah new found obsession

Well going for SSVP from 8 to 10 now. Seeya later to continue doing SIP ): ): ):

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TGIF

Hellyeah its Friday, finally! Seriously man school just gets more and more tiring by the day and week. I hope next week turns out not too bad seriously. This week was okay lah I guess, especially since Wednesday wasn't tooooo bad and usually I dread Wednesdays, so yep!

School today was quite boring actually, nothing much really happened, just that Isabella's going back to HongKong </3. Feel quite bad cos I didn't really bother to get to know her and she's here only for two weeks and I guess I didn't really do my part to make her comfortable and happy in 202. Well she kind of found her on clique and she fit in really well, so I guess I didn't feel a need to really get to know her and stuff, but I feel quite sad now that she's leaving. She was great fun! (:

Speaking of cliques earlier on, gah. Just really annoyed that some people just try to make themselves better than others. It honestly doesn't make sense. Who do they think they are. I mean like I don't deny that I am not in a clique but we're actually quite inclusive and we stick to each other but allow others to stick to us too. So its not too bad but some people are just urgh. :/

Anyway, moving on, today's assembly was less boring than usual (Y). There were performances and presentations which were way more interesting than the usual boring stuff. No offence. Hehehe so yeah my mood was up. up.up

The day turned out to be boring but heck I survived it (:

Yay going for SSVP pa later. Gosh I hope its not tooo boring )':
Okay really gotta do SIP nowwwww.

Later

CmPSSSS

There was Cmps yesterday, wheee(: ! Yes, I really enjoy cmps, though its time consuming and way more difficult than it seems and sounds. So we went to Eunos. The kids were sooooo asdfghjkl cute. They came running to us and cos they're so tiny they came hugging our knees. I was so touched, its super cute okay! Cos I don't have a younger sibling either so these things are new to me. Hehehehhehe <3

Poor girl was crying. Didn't really know how to solve the problem, she was ignoring me, I guess she was sad ):  ): ): Thankfully Yijing took over and helped me out, and it worked! Thank you sooooo much YiJing <3 <3 <3!  That's when I took over the smart kids, and hyper ones too. It was difficult engaging their attention but it was a great experience honestly. Cmps makes you feel good, doing things for others, really it feels great. But but but I'm very undisciplined in my group and many of us are. I'm sorry to all 6 members if I have been irresponsible/ inconsiderate etc. I really hope I will be more socially aware of my actions and I assure you I will be more on task in the future.

My reflections:

I wasn't able to handle the situation of a girl crying so I feel I should learn from my groupmates how to handle such situations. I want to be able to connect with the child and build that trust that will ease learning, thus making our project successful.

K i'm just soo damn tired. Gah many things happened these days, but i'll spread it out so yeah. Yay yay yay yay i'm so glad, I finally finished the experiment part of my SIP(: Hehehehehe huge accomplishment, cos I have been procrastinating it since forever! And some more, I already started on my report, so now I have, results, conclusion and discussion left. Not easy, but manageable to finish in the remaining time left. Gosh I am so last minute. I bet all the kiasu people in the world have already finished their SIP, completely.

Yesterday was rather interesting, I would say. Found out/ reconfirmed that Yijing is as skinny as a chopstick. Zomg, really. Supersupersupersuper skinny, its scary. She's taller than me and she's skinnier. So, she was kind enough to lend me her cheongsam (which I will return tmr in school) and it was so figure tugging (?!?!?!) on me, seriously. I almost wanted to consider not wearing at all but eventually I did, ahahaha Idk why actually. People said it looked fine, but I felt quite uncomfortable actually, I wasn't sure if the cheongsam was toooo short on me or something, cos I was supposed to wear pants below, but i didn't. What a looong sentence!

School turned out :/ ish as usual. I mean what can I say, it was a Wednesday, and I really don't exactly fancy wednesdays, well not at all. Hehehe I can help it ): . But yeah, I survived. And stuff happened too. (But i'll get to that later, or maybe not (;

Guess what? CSP oral turned out fine. I was so glad. Even though the tone prob turned out screwed or whatever, I could read every single word. Hehehehhe and thank you god for not testing words for the relatively hardeer topics (: <3 Picture was fine too. I learnt the vocab and hopefully impressed lao shi, with what I said, well I revised, so I'm already happy, whatever the outcome turns out to be. Then then then, I went to the KS Chee for MT Week movie screening, where we watched this movie about hopes and dreams. Didn't watch the whole show, so I didn't really get it. At first I thought it was a complete utter waste of time but yeah I figured the message was somewhat true, worth taking away something from it. Yep then rushed home after that cos I askwnlgfnwgjnljrngwjgrnlgnwl (Hehehehe don't want to say)

Then what? Did the day end? No. Interesting Stuff happened. Here's a brief (very brief) summary.

1. On the bus.
2. Looks out.
3. Sees ljfnsljnfoqnefwnf
4. Long stare between ljfnsljnfoqnefwnf and I
5. Faster looks away

It was damn awkward luh please. Lucky I looked away first. I'm still angry but Idc already, some people are just not worth it, and even though its hard to accept you grow to accept it eventually so hang in there(: !

The day was normal after that. Yep.


Didn't really talk about RS. Will be doing so after this.


Brb

Wed + Thurs

Yes wednesday was over like a longlong time ago but yes, its finally over. The day I was dreading for sooo long. I dk why, its just that I get super mood swingy on Weds, even more than on Mondays.

Strange huh? I'll just feel like snapping at everyone who talks to me on Wed. Its a personal thing, I also don't know why I'm so strange ;0 But its really true, my friends have realised too and tried pointing it out and yes, I agree with them.

So Thursday went pretty okay in school wasn't too bad luh basically. Was super mad cos it was Wednesday timetable, so I got super annoyed ttm. Its like they removed, averagely- annoying subjects and replaced them with super annoying subjects. We had math, which I honestly thought was dumb, cos the previous day we had a Math exam alr what! We had double physics block wth seriously. So sianzxc ttm, dom kept hacking into my account and changing my profile name to some "Lyshee Wysheee" name and it was so annoying cos I didn't know how to change back, but now I know and i already changed back. Hurhurhur Then there was PE, which was so urgh. We played volleyball, is she nuts, it hurts like crap. I almost died, it was damn painful man. Then worse of all there was MT, ahahaha idk why luh but I just dread that class so much. Not sure if its an all in the mind kind of thing or what. hahaha But really, i was so mad that there was mothertongue, and I kept complaining and all. Prac was interesting, and slightly awkward but it was fine ;D

Will blog about Friday in a separate post kk


tata

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updates!

Yes I haven't posted in 6+ days but yes, I have a reason! Its like this thing I do, its really personal luh, hahaha can't say. Maybe I'll elaborate next time.

Well manymanymany things happened thus far sine 6 JUL 2011, the last time I posted. Its been a really busy week so far and trust me, so has last week. Its like just everything comes up to your face and you don't know which to look at first. Kk let me rewind till on Friday. Had piano + theory from 5- 6.45 then I went for Pastoral Attachment. Turns out, it was actually pretty cool, though, looks may be deceiving. Played introductory games where everyone cheated, hahahahaha damn epic luh! Oh and we played this remember adjective games, haha still can't remember the orange shirt guy's name ;0 Oh well. But there were actually sec 3s who became members and when they shared their experiences, it  sounded pretty fun. My dad says if I enjoy it, maybe I can become a member. Its really interesting, like cos my church is located near Bukit Batok, and there's a communtity centre and old folks home nearby or something, so this (PA) is something about helping old people out, not really sure how, but I think its pretty fun, I love these kind of things, they make me happy (': oh and apparently, they spend lots of time on gospel reading, not sure how's that gonna turn out. All in all, even though my facil looks a beeet funny, it seems quite fun and i'm looking forward to the next friday's session. Gosh, i hope no ones from PA sees this, otherwise i die >:O

Spend the weekends + monday + tuesday mainly mugging and mugging and more mugging. Sad life in Rgs yeah? Never changes, hahaha, but still super glad I started memorising geog before the hols ended and I memorised my speech on Monday which allowed me to spend more time revising math etc. Thank god seriously :8

So I had Math Geog and Eng Oral today, I would say it was okay luh, hopefully I do well. Gah why are gpas so important, its so stressful ): ): ): Had a subject combi talk today, still not very sure of my decision, like whether its Trip Sci + Geog or Chem + physics+ Hist. + Geog. Weighing the benefits and disadvantages of history and bio. I don't wanna end up in something I feel like dying in. It'll really suck big time )':

I'm so glad I had such a good laugh with my friends today before Math, its like we were just sharing extremely funny stories about tuition teachers and school teachers, it was super fun. We all laughed like mad, and it really helped in calming me down. Its nice to know you have friends who can brighten up your day by tellling ya funny stuff. <3 Hehehehe

k feeling pretty tired right now and bad too, cos I didn't touch sip today, cos I was too busy resting.

Well I'll just end off now, hoping tomorrow will be more productive :0;0

btw, I took forever to wrap the hand over gifts + plus im not done with the cards


im screwedddddddd.

#gahhh

;0

Today's productivity: 7.4/10 (don't ask how I rate until the o.4) hahahahha ;0

Am I happy with myself? YES!

Gotta make some deicisions for cca and stuff, quite glad though, there's so many opportunities for leadership, exposure and all that, really hoping things turn out the well, not screwed hahahahha ):

Lots of things to learn and many expectations to meet ):

I think i've made my decision(:


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060711

Yep, yep yep yesterday went pretty well, much to my surprise! (': Well, I promised I'ld post so here it is, even though I feel damn tired, gosh!

1. Idk lah sometimes I don't know how to explain anymore luh, but why are some people just so asdfghjkl ;0? Its like huuuuuh, why that face? Everyone deserves what they earn yeah? Its not like it dropped from the sky and yeah. Maybe there are shortcomings but still, why until like that? Its super annoying cannnnnn, hahaha really felt like saying that, even though I also don't say "can". Hahahaha But seriously, I know you're jsut trying to be a good friend, which no doubt you are, but think about the people around you. Its all about the face, it speaks volumes of what you're thinking. Its really funny actually its like everyone can see you face okay, so at least pretend? That's even better than lousy attitude ;/

2. HOMG HOMG HOMG Congrats to my super annoying sister who did extremely well for theory, top in the world man, no kidding. I think my mum was freaking out when she got the call, I wish I was there to see but nevermind. Its super scary okay, omgomgomg :O top in the worlddddddddd! Still can't get over it. Imeanlike its sooo amazingggg and cool! Gah, I'm never gonna be like her )': Ahh, well the sad truth always sucks!

3. i'm a survivor (y) no honest! I survived through yesterday which I honestly thought was impossible. I'm so proud of myself, its an accomplishment for me, really! Like I tried to keep my positive attitude up throughout the day and it kinda worked though I got annoyed here and there it was overall okay, gosh I'm so happpppppppy! (:

4. Teaching at Eunos was such an experience! It's like in our proposal, we were just talking about how we thought things would be like at eunos and stuff and now that we actually experienced it, its totally different and coool! The kids are supppper cute and adorable. I love all of them very much, though I feel pretty sorry for a few. Some are real sad cases, but spREAD (my CmPS team) will try our best to help out, yeah? I wasn't really sure of the kind of tone we could use and everything. 2 kids were overly hyper so we had to make sure they kept still so I guess, we need to use our strict voice with them. But they're soooo cute! ): ahahaha. They kept saying they wanted to play dancing?!?!? How cute is that, seriously? And there were these identical twins, whom I can't really tell apart, really worried about meeting them the next time, cos I only managed to differentiate them through their different coloured shirts but they may change shirts next lesson! ): Gahhhhhh ;0
All in all, I really like my RS. It teaches me manymany things I can't learn in books, school, all that kind of stuff, yknow what I mean yeah?}

hellyeahhh

hellyeah I survived today, it really wasn't as bad as I expected it to be. Everything turned out as how I hoped for and yeah overall, I feel very accomplished for having pulled through this day considering I was completely dreading it. Lots of things to talk about-

1) Attitudes of People around me

2) Sis theory achievement

3) How I SURVIVED TODAYYY (Y)

4) Eunos Primary EXPERIENCE (':

5) Anything elseeeeeee!

really no time to blog now): just discussed eng AA over the phone with Reetika, more or less settled, I feel much much better now! (:


Promise to blogggg tmr k? Hahahah who the hell am I promisisng?


Whatever, haha

tata!


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SOS!

omg sian tomorrow is damn packed/ stressful/ urghhh!

please please please help me survive through tmr, its gonna be rough. Well I survived through today, which I also thought was gonna be tough. Hoping tmr won't be as bad as im expecting it to be):


SOS

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Arts TAPESTRY (:

HOMGGG Arts Tapestry performance was ahmaayyyzhing! seriously, seriously, seriously! Way more amazing then I thought it would be, considering the rehearsals were only okay- ish :/ yay so happy for Angklung and Strings! We finally did it well and it shone when we needed to. The opening ceremony was pretty good to. Hehehe I loved the MEP skit thinggi it was soo cute. Hhahahaa go Kim! <3 The lit RA thing was strange in a nice way too, very interesting. It was different, which was cool. Ehehehehe Then I went for the training thinggi for percussion workshop. I can't believe it, it was actually pretty cool!(: I can't believe that I actually helped a few seniors like in sec 3 with percussion, though I didn't do much >:( but stillll!

Spent the day with Cherrie and SiYing when we had breaks and we kept bumping into people we didn't want to. Super awkward man! Hahhaha lucky we stayed in 102 for an hour- ish for the compulsory henna thing, still don't get why its compulsory:/ Then we went back for shift, I joined the Ak shift and it was alittle dry but still fun trying to teach people how to play ak. Its pretty cool actually. Ohohoh and thanks sook may for supporting our booth! <3 Means a lot to me. Ehehehehe

Had rehearsals and yep from then, things got a little hectic. Like had to hurry from rehearsal to eat, pass adeline her ticket (Sorry its kinda torn:/) and Put Make- up which somehow turned out pretty okay. Idk what happened to me this time, it was like I was staring at all the make up and I didn't know how to put it on. Hahaha ended up rojak- ing lots of stuff together. But it turned out fine! Thank god, seriously. Guess it was bcos I was too zonked out by then.

Then comes the awesome pawsome performance! It was unexpectedly (well not so) GREAT! We didn't miss our entrances and everything and the sound overall was good! Hoping that we sound like that in upcoming performances, in the Fort Canning thinggum and the RHD hall thing. Just really proud of each and every one of us who contributed to it, it was worth it in the end yeah? All of the ranting and the sighing and the sianning!

Hahahaha so much more to say but it all has no coherence to Arts Fest, so i'll talk about those stuff laterrrrr.

Going to eat now, gosh I'm hungry ;0


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