bleurgh

gosh today was all YAY- ish till we went to EPS. I was so sad. Only 3 kids turned up. Prob cos of Hari Raya and stuff but honestly it was soooo wasted (?) kind of feeling. Grrr. Feel sorry for him. Why is he subjected to these weird feelings of fear and delusion. Hate these kind of things. Don't even try to convince me blahblahblah exist or what- not. I don't believe means I don't. Hahahahha seriously considering privatising my blog man. Wth D< So stressful to write anything.

Grrrr so disappointed in myself. I hate my self motivation level which sucks big time O; Feel like throwingg somethingggg. Grrrrr.

Omg yknow I quite scared that I'm bipolarrrr. Idk leh i'm always to moodswingy. Like srsly. Hopefully its just like yknow maybe the growing up stage of life (?!?!)

Oh god who am I kidding?


Help please

#Ireallyreallyreallytimesinfinityneedtobuckuplikemaddddddd . pissed ttm

Aim for now: before I leave I must finish Assignment 1. And maybe other incomplete math worksheets (if there are any (; )

Okay I already wasted sooo much time waiting for this sentence to load.

I shall not waste any more time.

And I shall be a good girl and go do my work O<

Going outoutout later. But for csi, heh.

Was soo angry just now but never mind.

I'll ignore it temporarily.

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Haven't posted in a real long time. Here's whats been happening these days:

1) End of one of the most torturous weeks ever (Week 9)
2) Start -so-called- of the holidays. (Please week 10's almost not counted)
3) Gonna start filming soon for CSI.
4) Trying to concentrate more on math.

Gosh i need to buck up (D<)

On my attitude and everything.

And urgh stop acting werid okay? Just be normal

Hope its not gonna be weird.


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TWITTER

Yes I finally created a twitter account.

Please do follow me on:

@lyshaann97 (if you like) Hahaha i think its better than fb!

I might actually go on a social networking hiatus except blogspot (of course!) and maybe twitterrrr. Its less distracting yet more fun (okay maybe its only fun cos i just created it)


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karma?

Do good to others and others will do good back to you!

I believe in that.

Tired now but ah well its fine! (:


Goodnight! (:

Senseofaccomplishment!

Okay i know you can see from the previous post (Edits in yellow) But i just wanna boast that I completed my very ambitious to- do - list and finished all math hw. Though there's still supplementary and revision exercise (but those or optional and answers are on inet so I'm safe! (: )

IFEELSOFREAKINGPROUDOFMYSELFTODAY.

GODPLEASEMAKEALLWEEKSLIKETHISWEEK.SUPERSUPERGOOOOOOD.!


Amen

♥

Ambitious TO-DO-LIST

OKAY IM BEING AMBITIOUS, (IGNORE THE CAPS)

BUT HERE IT IS:

1)ASSIGNMENT (FINSHED!)

2) SCALES AND MAPS WS 1 (Just finished! ) yay(:

3) PROPERTIES OF CICRLES WS 1 (More or less done. But i don't know 2 questions! ): )

(: Yayyayyy i must finish.

It's funny how we pretend to be okay with each other when in actual fact we're not.
Well at lease you're pissing me off much less now (:

Gosh I feel bad I just printed soooo much paper for my Ak file. cos my purple file got lost, so I needed another one ); i hope everyone else can still use the printer for a while more. If not its damn obvious its me !
Yay i just finished writing my name on every single page of my new file. I'm not being kiasu or anything but I really don't wanna lose any paper now cos otherwise I'll be wasting the printer's ink. ):

Yay another okayly good day. I slacked when I came for a while then got to work, which was good! {;

Also really glad there's no Lit/ EL till thursday so that's a break. But shaikkksssss I think there's math tomorrow. ); And there's CLE toooooo OOOOOOOO;

Hoping that I'll survive tomorrow w/o getting too annoyed >O

Okay i should continue my work nowwwwwwwwww.

TTTTYL.

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MOVIEEE

You have no idea how long i waited to get blogspot to work -.-
Gosh the things i would do to finally post my feelings and thoughts (Okay i know most of the time its said the other way round but heck >(  )

Kk today I want to talk about Friday's ssvp's session. Very. Interesting.

So we watched this movie called Soul Surf (or was it the other way round?!) Either way I was really enlightened by the movie. It was so good and sad.

It really opened my eyes to how lucky we are to even be able- bodied. (I know people say this all the time)
The girl who was a surfer went surfing one day and a shark bit off her hand. She was so optimistic and tried to find perspective. Gosh I probably would have died. She tried to act normal and live normally. Obviously, life would w/o one hand is a trouble. She found difficulty doing simple things. But she still continued surfing and even thought kids at Thailand how to surf.

Okay there's more to the story but I'm kind of tired ;/ so I'll just get to the point.
1) I'll try to find perspective in all things that happen (Ikindofdothissometimes)
2) I'll appreciate my body and love myself for who I am (I'lltry:|)
3) I'll be more determined. If someone less able- bodied can do something, so can I (I can do all things through Christ.)

Good movie. Lots of thoughts.

Anyways, yesterday plus today equals ideal weekend. I should be like this more.
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something just pissed me off.
heck I'm logging off now.

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OI.

You loser.

Stop reading my blog.

You know who you are.

Vanessa stop it. Its so disgusting of you

And stalker ish

Get a life

# on a brighter note, i'll talk about ssvp tomorrow(; pretty interesting!

Cmps yesterday

Yeahyeahyeah yesterday was soooo good! Like srsly man I loved yesterday's session the most. I think I'll like yesterday's session the most out of all. The kids were kind of high but deifinitely not lethargic. Though they seemed a little restless it was easy getting their attention and guess what I handled 3 kids! And somehow idk why I always end up with boys. Gosh why can't i get a cute little girl too? Hahahha i'm kidding I think i prefer to teach a little boy. I just think its easier(:

My 3 kids were ASDFGHJKL amazing ♥ I'm so proud of them. They were cute and smart/ (smarter than the last session) and 1 kid can even rmb my name. That's a big deal considering they're like p1. Its damn heartwarming man Ilovemyrsmorethananyotherproject. Did you catch that?


@Yijing: gosh hahahahah its so relieving to rant to you about youknowwhat. Hahahhaaha


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damn tired

Gosh today I'm damn tired but I will still painstakingly take the trouble to post. );

I think I'm really tired because of moving instruments and all. Its troublesome but worth it I guess </3. I love Thursday pracs, I just do, like I like it when kuls are at the back and Ak in front then somemore MsFaridah also comes so its more efficient. As I already mentioned earlier, i loved today's prac. It was soooo fun. I learnt lots of stuff and I think i can remember mostly. Hehhehehehe Quizas3 is damn nice!

Buuuuuut, after all that, I'm still super danm tired now. Gosh carrying instruments is real tiring.
Plus the pt overload is killing me -.-

I want to just puke man seriously.
On a brighter note, I'll start a new blogpost after this talking about yesterday(:

omgggosh! Sometimes life can be soooo grustrating -.-. I got soooo mad to tears even several times today. I hate the fact that I have a blog which is supposed to serve as an outlet of my feelings, but I can't even say what I really wanna say. Well you might say privatising it, but I don't want to. so there. Okay i know its my fault lah.

Anyway turned out art today wasn't too bad. The scratching thing actually worked out and she said she like it so thankfully that wasn't a waste of time. Ohhhh and for painting I'm drawing this dude that everyone seems to extremely dislike. Well, he isn't very appealing but he looks easy to draw so there, I'm strategising. Furthermore, chances are that I wouldn't even bring him home so it doesn't even matter.

So so so so so so so x infinity:

Relieved about my malay marks. Hell yeah 3.6 for main paper. (:! I am immensely proud of myself though I'm not sure whether I'll be able to maintain this. But gosh soooo happy. This might actually help pull my GPA up up up!

Today I realised how nice the library printing ink is. I just love the richness of the printing and the paper doesn't come out wet, unlike my home printer 0; so I'm going to the library to print stufff:) I can't wait actually. Hahahhhaha I'm being weird._.

Still got lots to do but since i slept late yesterday i'll sleep right after this.

One last thing, can't wait for prac tomorrow, i think its the try out a new instrument thinggi and its so fun. I was like kimberly's student and now I get to be teacher:D Feels good! Hehehhehehe and fun!

On a side and completely unrelated note,

please forgive me for

the completely

s   ca    t t   e re     d

(cool huh?!(: )

thoughts in this

BLOGPOST.

Thank you and goodnight!

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#oh so you think you know me now

Gosh Jessie J's Who's Laughing Now is amazing. I totally didn't get it at first but I love the lyrics, especially the chorus. Ahhhhh (: Hahahhaha Omgosh she's advertising a swatch watch on her MV. That's damn cool cos I wear swatch tooo. Gahhhh I was hyperventilating soooo long just now and my sis was just like -.- all the time.

Here's the mv.

And okay i know this is super lag and everything but superbass is quite catchy though the lyrics suck. Hahahhaha but i refused to listen to it since forever cos I heard from some people that it was rubbish. Well the lyrics are trashy but the chorus is okay? And the rapping is pretty cool ignoring the lyrics (okay is that even possible?)

Yay I'm super good kid.

Did my work.

Heheheh will not brag.

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Omgosh quite pissed off man with. @Yijing: Hahahahha I think you know what I mean.

Sometimes life is just unfair like really- so I'll try not to be a sore loser hahahha.

Also quite annoyed with mum.

Not gonna say these kind of stuff on my blog anyway.

Grrrrrrrrrr

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This is where I belong

Pretty good song. Long live Singapura




On a side note, I saw this on Kim's wall...


NEVER believe in 3 people : Sagittarius, Aries, Pisces. They are the most selfish and mean.
NEVER lose 3 people : Taurus, Cancer, Capricorn. They are the most sincere and true lovers.
NEVER leave 3 people : Virgo, Libra, Scorpio. They can keep secrets, friendship , and they can see your tears.
NEVER reject 3 people : Leo, Gemini, Aquarius .They are true, honest friends. :)


LOL what can I say. 


I'm aquarius btw. 


What about you?


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Wow today was just.

1. Played lots of piano in prep for exam on Thurs
2. Watched NDP parade.
3. Spent time on the phone with lots of people, in total talked like sooooo long hahahaha(:
4. Attempted/ still trying to do History PT


Confession:
1. I have been eating fastfood since Sunday ); like seriously. ); ); );

Had a real long talk with a friend. Felt better and I guess more at peace? It's cool when you find people who view something in a similar way as you do. I just hope everything turns out fine. (;

Lots of problems in cmps though. Discussed with sm and gosh there are lots of challenges identified like srsly! Feel so confused and trapped. What are we going to do? ;0

Need to start on Eng PT tomorrow with Louise

Hope csi is productive tomorrow! (:

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On a much brighter note, Happy Birthday Singapore. Happy national day to all S'poreans and we should all be appreciative of our dearest homeland.♥

In a heartbeat, I'll be there for you.

Kay. First things first. I'm too tired to talk about anything that happened like since 4th August, my last post, unless like its impt or if I remember. Kekekeke ;D

Downtowneast performance on Sunday was pretty good. We were invited by Radiya's mum and we performed in front of some mp, it was quite cool. Butbutbutbutbut, I screwed Getaran and a bit of Bengawan (okay im benig nice to myself, who am i kidding, I screwed quite a lot of Bengawan, not so little. But even though i couldn't hit the right notes, I think I kept calm and made sure whatever I played was correct and in harmony. :/ Good experience but I must work on not looking stone while concentrating yet looking at ms Faridah and smiling. (: I'll get the hang of it hopefully. Hopefully, yes?

Then monday was uhm ----------. Performance was quite boring actually. Hahahhaha no offence. ); Then other stuff happened (too risky to say here). Then after that. (; Reetika and I and Dini stayed in school till about 4 to discuss CSI. Yes pure discussion on filming yet, but we discussed for so long. Then we ordered in McD cos we didn't want to waste time going out to Orchard. It was fruitful.

Prob going out tomorrow to do CSI and Eng PT.

I have this great ambition to finish all the do- able by this week pts. Hehehehheh


wishmeluck;

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100th post!

Whoooo me!.

Gosh I'm tired but here's what I gotta say.

1. I am super tired from yesterday
2. I am satisfied with myself
3. I'm glad I survived today.

ciao

justkillme );

omg today is just sooo stressful. I literally broke down into tears after school. RS, geog aa, cca. Everything.

I stayed up till 3 to do the addendum but we didn't even submit it cos other work which was supposed to be distributed wasn't really don, so yeah. ):

I needed to complete my speech before cca starts cos i'll be recording after cca with Munifa and Syahadah.

I LOST MY CCA FILE

AMC is starting in a few minutes

i gotta go ):

3.03

Some people are experts at talking lots of rubbish at once.

Some people are experts at being useful in small ways (very).

Some people are so cynical I can't stand it.

Some people are just so kiasu.

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Its 3.03 am and I am going to sleep after doing the Addendum.
Where is page 2?
Where are the pictures?

Gosh.

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Ssvp

SSVP- Something I do which is actually meaningful and for a good cause. Well, besides things like Cmps and yeah. I know I always dread sessions because its with ------- and stuff but actually it's pretty interesting. Gospel reading is actually meaningful, I used to think it can never appeal to me but hey when we actually link hidden messages in the gospel with our real life experiences its really really enlightening to know there are many other people who share the same experiences/ troubles/ worries. Its just like "Hey omg me too, " Basically, it feels good to be in a ministry although  its only pa, and even if my mum doesn't allow me to join as a member maybe when I'm old I'll join the senior ssvp team (?!?!!) Okay maybe not but you kinda get the point.

Whooooo 2 papers over! Feels good to know the next exam is in forever (well, not really! But its only term 4 so there's still a long way more (': ) Lit was okay, I think, I tried my best definitely and I really hope to do well, well at least okay ly well. Doing well in let is almost impossible (Well at least for me)

Chinesewas scary. Like a rollercoaster ride, honest. Section A was manageable. Section B was scary cos I thought i wasn't able to do it, but surprisingly lao shi I did everything right there. Section C was okayokay I guess, hope my story was good enough! (: But Section B really scared me, it was supposed to be the easy section but somehow turned out to be the scariest section like urgh:/ anti climax much.

But overall, I feel good. Getting backHistory tomorrow. God help me do okayly.


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gosh bahas script is killing meeeeee. ;0000OOOOOOOOOOOO