Today was honestly super sucky. (Not because of RS, other stuff)
Okay I'm sooooo confused and annoyed. I hate this stage of my life now. I can't stand it. I'm just so annoyed that no one takes me seriously. I'm so glad to have had such a comforting conversation with a veryveryvery good friend last night. But I'm still so sad. They don't get me, idk why. They think I'm always being :
1) selfish
2) jealous
3) attention seeking
etc. all that kind of stuff. Its so sad really. I think it's because I've been to joke-y (!?!?) when I was younger. But its so frustrating I can break down even if I start talking about it. I'm know that even when I post this I'm going to be judged an all but at this stage, I really cannnnnn't take it anymore. They're all the older kids, so they don't know what it's like to be the younger kid. )<
She falsely accused me of being selfish to my sister. But i wasn't. I really don't need these distractions right now, when EYAs are coming! but in the end, it is always my fault, bcos I live under her roof and its all hers and her money. I have no say, now at least.
I'm sooo glad to have found someone who understands me (Sorry i won't state names). Really, i feel way better after talking to you. Thank you so much! (:
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moving on to my next post. don't want too long posts. it'll lagggg
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